I’m being still.
I’m still here.
I ask the Universe for guidance and all is still.
It’s like my friend Stephen says once you face fear it turns into a coward. It’s still.
What will I do next?
There are no coaches at this point I care to follow. Nor no gurus.
It’s not like I can’t be taught more, it’s more like the Universe is waiting for MY next move.
The conversations of doubt, fear, and how I’m always fucking up are Beyond old.
I just listen to them everyday as “i” hardly exist.
A shell run by a machine I don’t like.
2:02 AM and all is still.
Maybe you are right Stephen.
Maybe I have to be my own superhero and save myself.
In the morning when I awake will I let the machine take over?
For now it seems like the stillness before a great battle.
We’re staring at each other.
This is a very beautiful post. Very heartfelt. The stillness can be frightening but it is also a time to reflect. You have the power in yourself to be your own super hero like you said. You just need to unlock it.
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Thank you for the encouragement❤️
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Wowza that’s a very moving piece… Stephen has some good words of advice and he is a bit of a guru in my mind, certainly for me. Katie x
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I am glad you are still here, Dwight. You will figure it out.
Best wishes,
Tanja
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I generally “save” myself by not running. Like panic…as hard as it is, as much as I want to destroy it, I force myself to face it and to have a conversation with it, to try to understand what it’s telling me. The answer eventually comes, not always in that exact moment, but it comes. Best to you…
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Thank you. Sounds like a good plan.
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Beautiful post
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beautiful, dwight. i have found that we each need to be our own superhero. nice to have a loyal sidekick though. love your blog and look forward to reading more. thanks for following mine – peace, beth
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Thanks Beth
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