Month: March 2019

Prayer

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I’m NOT a “religious” person at all, but last night I sat and prayed to the great spirit(energy) that surrounds us. I voiced many of the negative thoughts that were bombarding me since I’ve removed the numbing from alcohol. I said them all out loud and just sat with them and asked for peace and to feel good. God. Good. I realized that if the peace I’m asking for is FROM Spirit(God) then naturally this energy of peace is already within me. How could it not? There is no exclusion. None. So as I sat still after asking for peace and realizing it’s already within me it was almost like the clouds within we’re starting to break up and bits of peace were starting to shine through. I’m going to starting using prayer as one of my tools. I guess I’m bringing it up to let others know you don’t have to go to a church to pray. You don’t have to believe in the the Bible to pray. You can just pray to the Universe how YOU wish. Hope everyone has a great day and I’ll be surrounding you all with best wishes. Keep 🎸 it! 

Fed Up

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Somewhere within this spinning earth resides hope and goodness

As the media machines spits out doom, gloom, and negativity

We know there is more then just that

How did we end up here listening, believing, and clicking on all this SHIT

There is Love

I know it

I feel it

We must not give in to this wave

How do we stop this nonsense

There lies the answer possibly

STOP

Stop buying into it

Stop reading it

Stop subscribing to it

Check out from the media and start giving love instead

Be the example

Why haven’t we figured this out yet

Love Never Fails

It’s the truth, but we choose to believe otherwise

You insulted me

You don’t understand and you are wrong

You are my enemy

I’m a snowflake

I told my kids I wouldn’t bring babies into this current mess

Are we never going to get along

Are we going to continue killing the planet

Many people are checking out

Going minimal

They can no longer buy into this shit that’s be sold to us

We need to stop buying into McMansions, $40,000 vehicles, jobs/investments that go against are morals,…

Somehow we have to go back to the basics

Love

We must give more Love

We must take less of everything else

We spend so much on our military

How much do we spend on Love and Compassion

Everyone is on depression medicine

We need Love prescriptions instead

This country is fighting against itself

Our children are pissed at our actions

They don’t want to grow up and be like us

I don’t want to be like us either

Were we never intended to figure it all out and Change

Are humans not capable of living together peacefully

Even if all our needs are met is it just against our nature

How do we change

Stop

Regroup

Starts with me, I

Somehow my soul tells me love never fails

Reach across the table and hold a strangers hand

Rant done! Maybe us too. Hopefully not.

Initial observations being Alcohol-Free

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When I say initial it’s only been 19 days, but coming off tipping brews for 40 years this is quite the change. I haven’t had any real physical reactions being AF and attitude wise I’ve been pretty pumped up, BUT…  I have noticed this slithering around me in my shadows:

– I’ve been noticing in the last few weeks I’m oversensitive and have been overreacting quite a bit.  This leads to anger.  Who knows right,  I may have been experiencing this forever and am now just figuring this out being out of the fog.  I’ve thought it over and over and each day I got closer and closer to naming it.  My anger is coming from my shame and regret.  I realize this is all natural, it doesn’t make it any easier.  

I played the whole alcohol game for 40 years.  From never giving myself a fighting chance, to marriage, kids, divorce, divorced kids, heartbroken, and debt.  All heavily influenced by alcohol.  I do love that I finally figure it out, my life and health is improving, and  I’d NEVER GO BACK.  It’s just that bitter taste.  I’ve heard the phrase, sometimes you never get over it, but you get through it.

I wasn’t ready until now, I get that.  I’m already telling myself I did awesome for figuring it out now, but for right now there is that bitter taste.  So I’m doing my work and going to my shadows.  It’s not easy and I realize that.  It will take time for sure.

One last thing I’d like to say.  For all of you doing this AF work (or considering it) in your 20s, 30s, and 40s I so applaud you!  Its fucking hard work and some of the environments you find yourself in at that stage make it even harder.    No way around it.  You though are so courageous and smart for taking these steps to be AF now and not in your 50s.  The work will free YOU and allow your “YourNameHere”Ness to shine as it was intended to.  If applicable,  it may save a marriage and allow you to be proud of doing everything you could do for your kids,  OR  If applicable, becoming AF may allow you to free yourself from a bad situation.

This isn’t being written for any pity.  It’s just my observation of me and maybe it will help others.  Also, for those going AF later in life you will know your not that only one with these feelings.

I’m going to continue to grow, learn, and rock this new life!!  From the bottom of my heart, I thank you all for all your love and support!

* For those interested in learning more about alcohol and possibly exploring going AF check out these resources

  1. Read This Naked Mind by Annie Grace
  2. https://www.thisnakedmindcommunity.com
  3. https://learn.thisnakedmind.com/the-alcohol-experiment-registration

I’m just over 2 weeks now being Alcohol-Free and I’m in a bit of a ….FUNK!

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Background

I was born in Massena,  NY along the St.Lawerence river which borders Canada. (Living in Woodland Park, CO now).  My mother was actually born in Canada.  Anyway, I was a teen in the late 70s early 80s and listened to classic rock such as Zeppelin, Stones, The Who,  and Pink Floyd and occasionally that new band AC/DC. I liked all kinds of music really,  but CR was my thing.

Present

Well as you know I’m AF and it’s been just over 2 weeks.  I hear that alcohol takes approx. 7 to 10 days to fully leave your body, so at day 13 a very strange thing took over me.    It’s Friday night and I’m home with my doggies, and all of sudden I have this urge out of nowhere to play that song “That’s the way (I like it)”.  What the Fr!ck???   or what the Funk??  I go with it since my whole body and emotions have been going in all kinds of directions.  I looked up who played it and found out it’s KC and The Sunshine Band and played it on YouTube.  Next thing I know I’m clearing the living room floor and doing some very bad grovin and shaking my booty.  I couldn’t get enough so I fired them up on iHeartRadio.

The songs just made me smile and have some fun from Get Down Tonight to Keep it Comin’ Love.  I still haven’t given up my classics though, but an old dog can always learn new tricks, right?

I’m digging this new AF FUNK. Thanks for all your support.

Dwight