You can’t buy this

My Mom.

This was taken over a week ago at the airport when I picked her up.

She’s looking directly at me.

Look at all that LOVE.

As tears flow down my cheeks, I’m feeling so grateful for her!

We had a wonderful visit.

Life is not about having things, gaining titles, or winning.

It’s about that smile above❤️

Being an adult is hard!

Yep.  Being an adult is hard!!!  Especially after  being spoon fed the great consumer marketing campaign from birth.  I want I want….I deserve I deserve…

Ego:  I want that cold piece of pizza for breakfast.  It’s right there.  It’s easy.

Soul:  Shut the hell up.  That shit is not the way you want to start off your day.  Tons of processed ingredients not mention the calories.  Grow the hell up.

 

Ego:  But this afternoon we’re going to swill a truck load of beer.  You deserve it man.  Little Zepplin playing, some sun and fun brother!

Soul:  Shut the hell up!  Yah yah yah.  You escape for maybe an hour and then the poison kicks in and not only are you more depressed, you’ve blown a whole afternoon getting wasted, and in about 6 hour you’ll wake up from your drunk slumber and will be hungover and regretting your drunken actions.  More guilt.  Nope.  Not going to happen.

 

Ego:  Okay.  Okay.  But lets go buy something.  You could really use a newer vehicle.  You’re driving a 1992 Jeep Cherokee for gods sake.  Have you seen the vehicles in the high school students parking lot lately.  They’re driving 2018 vehicles that blow yours away and they are teenagers!!

Soul:  Shut the hell up!  I’ve heard and experienced  all of your lies on how “things” will make me happier.  They fucking don’t!  All they do is steal my hard earned money.  Not going to happen.  I’m working smarter now and I don’t need things!!

 

Ego:  Man!  Easy easy.  Okay.  Okay.  You’re right.  You are right!  I’ve been wrong, all along, and you have your shit together.  I mean look at you.  You’ve been working so hard and doing everything right.  Lets reward our self.  You deserve it.  How about we just lay around this weekend and take it easy.

Soul:  Shut the hell up!  I know what you’re trying to do.  We got work to do and as soon as I stop doing my daily habits all hell breaks loose in my life all because of you and your bullshit.  We’re getting off our ass and getting er done.  You hear me!!!

 

Ego:  You shut the hell up!  You’re ugly, lazy, in debt, will be lonely forever with no women in site!  Your life is a big waste and you my friend are pathetic!  I’m just trying to help you.

Soul:  I’m sorry you are so scared.  I know you see me getting stronger and healthier and it feels like you are getting shoved out.  I can no longer listen to your nonsense.  I was intended into the universe by a great power and that’s all I need to know.  I was meant to be here.  I was meant to shine.  I was meant to bring my “dwightness” to this world and that’s what I’m going to do.  You can either work with me or go away.

 

It’s hard to be an adult, but it’s so worth it.  Love never fails.  Grow up and start loving yourself!  You are worthy!!

 

*It’s a bit interesting my last name is Hyde.  Yes, a bit of Jekyll and Hyde today for your reading pleasure : )