It’s way more than just quitting alcohol

* It’s an act of faith to post early in the morning as you clearly hear your heart song

Quitting alcohol is huge!

For many it’s the required first step.

Like I’ve said several times before it allows you to finally give yourself a chance.

Instead of retreating and hiding in the fog, you will now sit and face your dragons.

Over and over again.

For me, I’m learning it takes teaching the mind to place nice.

Friday going into Saturday I discovered I had been listening and living solely through my mind lately.

The call came in for healing. I knew because I was mentally exhausted and the tears came flowing for over 4 hours on and off.

It was definitely influenced by reading Sarah Blondin’s book Heart minded: How to hold yourself and others in love.

I let the tears flow knowing I needed the cleansing. I needed to turn toward myself and look inward.

I took naps and read more. Still reading it … I wasn’t going to mention this at all, but maybe hearing my vulnerabilities can help someone face theirs.

Depression and anxiety is scary as FUCK! You hate acknowledging it because you think even giving it in inch it will swallow and drag you down into its depths.

I’m starting to discover though I need to start noticing the mean things my mind is saying about me and stop running away.

I don’t have to argue with it anymore. I can just say follow me.

We will leave the mind and sink like a stone down into my soft heart.

No words need to be said once we arrive. It will know it’s met it’s match.

It sees my true identity and then I show it the door to leave my body. This allows more light to shine within.

I feel deeply. I always have. I crave deep loving conversations going into many topics other people just don’t want to discuss. I crave deep hugs that kiss my soul. For much of my life I’ve tried to hide this fact. Man up is what society preached, so I started shutting down my heart and allowing my mind to take over my guidance system. So hard to put in words. I must acknowledge though it is my heart I’ve been hiding from so very often.

Escorting the negativity out is the only way forward and reconnecting my mind to my heart is the way.

Just writing that I hear rumblings of weakness, broken, not man enough… it’s a darn shame. What we need now more than ever is more love, but everyone is too fucking scared to show it.

This will definitely be a work in progress. But as always good needed work.

Work way way way beyond the bottle.

This is why so many of us sober fricks are so damn passionate about never going back.

Quitting alcohol was our first step on finding ourselves again.

Each step is Gold.

Thank you all for listening to me ramble, your love, and your support ❤️


27 thoughts on “It’s way more than just quitting alcohol

  1. So sorry to hear you’ve been struggling and I’m glad you shared it here. I wish I had a magic wand or words that made it go away but I don’t. It is a battle with our thoughts and I totally get the crying and cleansing … it has to be done sometimes. It gives us headspace to move forward. Sending love to you Dwight ❤️🥰

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  2. I admire that you are able to sit with your feelings (and allow yourself to feel them) – that is a feat of strength in courage in my book! Speaking of books, I didn’t realize Sarah Blondin wrote one! I love her guided meditations so this is definitely going on my list. Thank you, as always. for sharing.

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  3. i am sure this is something i need to do also. For months and months the depression/anxiety cycle just got worse, yet i have been unable to cry. Thank you for sharing this and big deep breath hugs my friend…

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  4. Connecting to your heart and prioritizing love sounds pretty darn awesome to me. And manly, womanly, all of it. 😄. And sometimes, we just need to cry. I’m glad you can let yourself do what you need. Big hugs!! 🤗

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  5. Each step is gold. Even wading through the pain. I too have been thinking about how sobriety is such a battle of the mind. Why do our minds tend to self-sabotage? We should be our biggest heroes. I guess that’s where the heart comes in. But sometimes I feel that I want a new voice in my head! Love and light to you. 🌟💛

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  6. Awwwww I absolutely love what your feeling in your heart! I’m so sorry you have been struggling! You are really putting in the inner work and it really shows through in your posts and pictures! I totally admire so much about you! You continue to inspire me to keep working on my inner self. I’m sending you a huuuuuuuge, long loving hug. One you feel inside and out. Thanks for sharing such a personal part of yourself and please keep us updated on how you are doing. You are one awesome friend Dwight! 😍❤️

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  8. So brave Dwight to not run away from the mean things in our mind – thanks for sharing this – you have a big heart and in my view that’s the mark of a real man and real strength – take care of yourself my friend 💞💞

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    • It’s definitely a work in progress. I’m starting to realize these lows are the way since they force us to stop and face what’s no longer working in our life. I’m done running away. Thank you for your kind words and support. It warms my soul🤗


  9. Just beautiful Dwight… and I so agree with that statement at the top “It’s an act of faith to post early in the morning as you clearly hear your heart song” – awesome reminder and so true. I nearly did yesterday actually, but then it was breakfast time and well, guess maybe that was meant to be too. But I love this heart song of yours. Lovely and deep. So many beautiful lines. “We will leave the mind and sink like a stone down into my soft heart.” Pure poetry of/with the self/ves. Thank you for sharing it with us. 💛

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  10. You are so brave, Dwight. This is a beautiful reflection. You’re a great example for others trying to cast off the dysfunctional culture of toxic masculinity that puts our planet in danger.
    Sarah Blondin is one of my favorite meditation teachers! I haven’t yet read her book but you’ve motivated me to check it out. Be well, courageous soul.

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