You can’t buy this

My Mom.

This was taken over a week ago at the airport when I picked her up.

She’s looking directly at me.

Look at all that LOVE.

As tears flow down my cheeks, I’m feeling so grateful for her!

We had a wonderful visit.

Life is not about having things, gaining titles, or winning.

It’s about that smile above❤️

Being an adult is hard!

Yep.  Being an adult is hard!!!  Especially after  being spoon fed the great consumer marketing campaign from birth.  I want I want….I deserve I deserve…

Ego:  I want that cold piece of pizza for breakfast.  It’s right there.  It’s easy.

Soul:  Shut the hell up.  That shit is not the way you want to start off your day.  Tons of processed ingredients not mention the calories.  Grow the hell up.

 

Ego:  But this afternoon we’re going to swill a truck load of beer.  You deserve it man.  Little Zepplin playing, some sun and fun brother!

Soul:  Shut the hell up!  Yah yah yah.  You escape for maybe an hour and then the poison kicks in and not only are you more depressed, you’ve blown a whole afternoon getting wasted, and in about 6 hour you’ll wake up from your drunk slumber and will be hungover and regretting your drunken actions.  More guilt.  Nope.  Not going to happen.

 

Ego:  Okay.  Okay.  But lets go buy something.  You could really use a newer vehicle.  You’re driving a 1992 Jeep Cherokee for gods sake.  Have you seen the vehicles in the high school students parking lot lately.  They’re driving 2018 vehicles that blow yours away and they are teenagers!!

Soul:  Shut the hell up!  I’ve heard and experienced  all of your lies on how “things” will make me happier.  They fucking don’t!  All they do is steal my hard earned money.  Not going to happen.  I’m working smarter now and I don’t need things!!

 

Ego:  Man!  Easy easy.  Okay.  Okay.  You’re right.  You are right!  I’ve been wrong, all along, and you have your shit together.  I mean look at you.  You’ve been working so hard and doing everything right.  Lets reward our self.  You deserve it.  How about we just lay around this weekend and take it easy.

Soul:  Shut the hell up!  I know what you’re trying to do.  We got work to do and as soon as I stop doing my daily habits all hell breaks loose in my life all because of you and your bullshit.  We’re getting off our ass and getting er done.  You hear me!!!

 

Ego:  You shut the hell up!  You’re ugly, lazy, in debt, will be lonely forever with no women in site!  Your life is a big waste and you my friend are pathetic!  I’m just trying to help you.

Soul:  I’m sorry you are so scared.  I know you see me getting stronger and healthier and it feels like you are getting shoved out.  I can no longer listen to your nonsense.  I was intended into the universe by a great power and that’s all I need to know.  I was meant to be here.  I was meant to shine.  I was meant to bring my “dwightness” to this world and that’s what I’m going to do.  You can either work with me or go away.

 

It’s hard to be an adult, but it’s so worth it.  Love never fails.  Grow up and start loving yourself!  You are worthy!!

 

*It’s a bit interesting my last name is Hyde.  Yes, a bit of Jekyll and Hyde today for your reading pleasure : )

Prayer

I’m NOT a “religious” person at all, but last night I sat and prayed to the great spirit(energy) that surrounds us. I voiced many of the negative thoughts that were bombarding me since I’ve removed the numbing from alcohol. I said them all out loud and just sat with them and asked for peace and to feel good. God. Good. I realized that if the peace I’m asking for is FROM Spirit(God) then naturally this energy of peace is already within me. How could it not? There is no exclusion. None. So as I sat still after asking for peace and realizing it’s already within me it was almost like the clouds within we’re starting to break up and bits of peace were starting to shine through. I’m going to starting using prayer as one of my tools. I guess I’m bringing it up to let others know you don’t have to go to a church to pray. You don’t have to believe in the the Bible to pray. You can just pray to the Universe how YOU wish. Hope everyone has a great day and I’ll be surrounding you all with best wishes. Keep 🎸 it! 

Fed Up

Somewhere within this spinning earth resides hope and goodness

As the media machines spits out doom, gloom, and negativity

We know there is more then just that

How did we end up here listening, believing, and clicking on all this SHIT

There is Love

I know it

I feel it

We must not give in to this wave

How do we stop this nonsense

There lies the answer possibly

STOP

Stop buying into it

Stop reading it

Stop subscribing to it

Check out from the media and start giving love instead

Be the example

Why haven’t we figured this out yet

Love Never Fails

It’s the truth, but we choose to believe otherwise

You insulted me

You don’t understand and you are wrong

You are my enemy

I’m a snowflake

I told my kids I wouldn’t bring babies into this current mess

Are we never going to get along

Are we going to continue killing the planet

Many people are checking out

Going minimal

They can no longer buy into this shit that’s be sold to us

We need to stop buying into McMansions, $40,000 vehicles, jobs/investments that go against are morals,…

Somehow we have to go back to the basics

Love

We must give more Love

We must take less of everything else

We spend so much on our military

How much do we spend on Love and Compassion

Everyone is on depression medicine

We need Love prescriptions instead

This country is fighting against itself

Our children are pissed at our actions

They don’t want to grow up and be like us

I don’t want to be like us either

Were we never intended to figure it all out and Change

Are humans not capable of living together peacefully

Even if all our needs are met is it just against our nature

How do we change

Stop

Regroup

Starts with me, I

Somehow my soul tells me love never fails

Reach across the table and hold a strangers hand

Rant done! Maybe us too. Hopefully not.

It could be worse

The other night I was leaving yoga and I saw this​ gentleman​n slowly walking on the sidewalk with a walker. It was dark out, cold, and there was still some snow and ice on the ground. Something just didn’t seem right and I’m finally​ learning to listen to my intuition and ACT.

Me: How’s it going?
Him: Slow.
Me: Is that your car in front of mine?
Him: No.
Me: Where you headed?
Him: My house on Elm.

I asked him if he wanted a ride and he said sure. We get his walker into my back seat and he slowly gets into the passenger seat and I shut the door for him. He looked to be in his mid thirties. We’re driving and I could tell something was wrong as he slowly talked and tried to pronounce his words.

Him: I had a stroke and I’ve been trying to get out and exercise, but didn’t realize how long it took me to get over here. (about a 1/2 mile from his house)
Me: I’m so sorry to hear that you had a stroke.
Him: Yah, this is my second one. (then long pause)… I guess it could be worse.
Me: Speechless.

After I dropped him off, all I could think about was his statement it could be worse. How many times have I done the whole woe is me or created self drama over nothing. Nothing!

I often forget it could be a lot worse.

Roll with the Small stuff and Appreciate and be Grateful for everything you have!