Smiling while wounded

Wounded

I was reading and came across the word

Flash to this I created

In more ways than one

Not all wounds are seen

But indeed they are there and deep

I felt sad revisiting this time

I look and wanted to say I’m sorry

You needed helped in such a bad way

Instead you faked smiles

And life is good

Falling and tumbling inside

…Interesting how the doggies could sense it

Don’t suffer in silence❤️

* These were taken during my divorce back in 2015. Fast forward to two days ago when I saw Elton John on his Goodbye yellow brick road tour. He told a story of how it took him so many years to learn 3 words that would change his life —> I Need Help. Once he admitted it and said it to all to hear LOVE came flooding in. How I wish now that I would of had the courage then to voice those words. Learning as I go.

Dwight goes marbles!

What can you do with one marble?

See the jar on the right? What’s different between that and the Others?

It’s POTENTIAL! It’s me.

At least that’s how I’m rolling with it for my new 2019 ritual.

I got the idea from James Clear in his book called Atomic Habits. James says we as a group love to track and describes by how using marbles as an example we can track the habits we strive for in life. I found the book quite interesting and highly recommended it! I have this make belief world in my head where I’m doing EVERYTHING right and only doing good things – only to awaken after another year and nothing changes. This year I’m going to change all that and roll with James idea and put my own spin on it!

So in my world I start on the left jar with Spirit. For me, it’s all the energy and abundance that surrounds Everything. This spirit supplies the universe with its energy and opportunities of possibilities which is represented in my middle jar. Each soul has the opportunity to dance with this energy of the universe or not. If you choose not Spirit doesn’t care. It will just dance by giving you “NOT”. I for one am tired of not and not growing and expanding to my full beautiful potential. This year I’m the right jar and my job is to dance with the universe and fill it with good habits.

I first started off by writing down all the good themes that I currently think would turn my life around and I could use to make me more accountable.

Next I think about some habits I could use that will guide me in the right direction. For every action I take the universe of possibility smiles and gladly puts a marble in my jar.

For each positive action, I get another marble.

As soon as the universe of possibility transfers a marble, spirit replenishes it just as easy as that.

There is an infinite amount of “marbles” the universe of possibility can contain. All I need to do is ACT and start the dance.

So I put the jars in my living room where I can see them daily just waiting for me to play. I discovered right of the bat though to keep the lids open – it helps with flow.

Every action taken that day toward my themes gets a marble from the universe of possibility put into my jar. Not only do I move it over, but I also write it down.

I’m creating triggers that reinforce my habits.

So at this point you may be asking what about spirit? What replenishes it?

All of us do!

Every morning I empty “my marbles” back into spirit and the dance starts all over again.

Instead of living this make belief world in my head, I’m now creating a wonderful REAL world!

What can you do with one marble?

Change Your Life❤️

2 walks today

One with my dogs.

One just for me.

Just relaxing now as my cheeks start to warm.

Pecking this out with one finger on my iPad and feeling good.

Not drug or booze induced.

Glancing over at my Xmas tree and out my front window at the tree there all lit up and my heart smiles.

I feel good.

I have hope.

I’m even a bit excited.

I went on 2 walks today.

One with my dogs.

One just for me.

* sending love out to all for 2019