Just wanted to let you know I’m going unplugged.
I’m not going to define or attempt to explain, since that usually boxes in or takes away from the experience.
I’m feeling very well. No depression. No alcohol cravings. So no worrying about me.
Know I’m still cheering you on❤️
I’ll be back on in February.
All the best to you,
Dwight
Be it a pill
Counseling sessions
Meditation
Or even a walk on a cold snowy day
Take what works for you!
The dragon is always ready to pounce.
I know.
We have to remind ourself often that life doesn’t come in a perfectly neat wrapped package with a bow. Appearances aren’t always the reality. Life is complex with the ebb and flow of good, bad, and tragedies.
Our soul will eventually be listened to. The Falls or darkness right now may actually bring more light into your life in the long run. Sometimes we can’t understand but we can’t give up! By all of us opening up and sharing our stories, we can connect and realize we aren’t alone. Many of us have had the same experiences and can share how we’ve coped and grown from them.
Life can get pretty messy, but together we can help and support each other. You aren’t the odd one out! Trust me.
Dwight
I’ve never created a year end type summary post because quite frankly there hasn’t been a whole hell of a lot to “highlight”. This year though, I feel like my Phoenix spread it wings and started to lift off. Before I start I want say whole heartedly thank you all for your love and encouragement.
It’s one thing to come out of the ash knowing you are no longer the same. Taking flight is a whole other endeavor. It took 4 years of self imposed imprisonment for me to finally start to rise. As weird as it sounds, it wasn’t until my alimony and maintenance agreements were complete that I felt my sentence was lifted.
3 things I’m thankful for accomplishing in 2019
Along with all this, I feel like WE grew closer. Yes my little tribe of misfit cape crusaders have grown to a pretty neat tight group! I’m so grateful for you all in my life. This has been the best therapy for me becoming friends with you🤗. I’m starting to take flight and know this new decade will bring new experiences, joy, and growth for us all.
Thanks again,
Dwight
This will give you a good idea of where I’m at beIng single at 53. It’s a trip for sure.
Do you think you will fall in love again?
Do you have the energy to start a love relationship and keep it going?
Do you still get sparks/attracted to someone or do you dismiss it right away?
Do you feel like you could live with someone 24 x 7?
After living alone so long, could you put up with someone around having to talk to, plan things with, accept things that annoy you,…
How would it work dealing with their family?
Do you worry about growing old and alone and not having memories shared with someone?
Are we alone if we live by ourself but have many friends?
Do you crave a hug, your cheek kissed, …?
When was the last time you were intimate? Was it awkward? Were you scared?
Is it different when we don’t feel as attractive now compared to when were younger and more attractive?
Could you trust again?
Would you be walking on egg shells waiting for something to go wrong?
Would it end up being like many couples at restaurants sitting across from each other not talking?
What’s the worse thing that could happen if you tried to find love?
What’s the worst thing that could happen if you don’t try?
It seems to me all this was much easier when we were young. What are your thoughts?
Sending good vibes to you all,
Dwight
Today was my hanging of the lights day. This was the first time in so many years, I can’t even remember, that I didn’t swill like a 100 beers afterwards to keep me in the holiday spirit. I’m full of gratefulness and plenty of love from you all that helps me fly solo without alcohol. I was reminded this morning though that this is indeed not always a joyous time of year for many.
My good friend Functioningguzzler posted today, Christmas is not festive for everyone. If your not familiar with FG please read her post and follow. Also, please send her love in the comments on her post. We have so much love in our community here and right now FG needs it.
❤️
In the last two days, I’ve come across the reference to the Greek myth of labyrinth and the Minotaur. Once in the book Callings, Finding and Following an Authentic Life by Gregg Levoy and a blog entry here on WordPress by Kachaiweb – Food.for.Thoughts. Now this isn’t something that usually happens to me coming across Greek myths.
It’s a story of Theseus slaying a beast in an underground labyrinth, and guiding himself out by a length of thread given to him by the king’s daughter, Ariadne. Allison Stieger wrote a wonderful article on this where I found the quote above:
As Allison says, “Monsters are often the guardians of treasure, who must be slain in order to bring the treasure out. In a creative journey, we must often find our way through a labyrinth. We take wrong turns, hit walls, get lost. Often, this is what must happen to find the creative treasure at the center of ourselves, that one thing that must be brought into the world through our creative efforts.”
I know for myself and for many of you we feel like everyday we’re fighting a battle within. Many times the path ahead seems dark and bleak and we’re very much scared that if we go deeper we may not be able to return. I feel like these references pointing me back to this myth is indeed a sign to remind myself and you to keep finding the courage to take another step in our own labyrinth. This journey is so worth the rewards of finding our true self.
You are a treasure worth battling for,
Dwight
