Feeling Senior

So I’m going to talk about my work situation and a little thing that keeps gnawing on me just to see if anyone else out there can relate a bit.  Excuse me why I lay down on the couch, so it’s easier to open up.

Okay doc…I’ve been working for a hospital as an application developer for twenty years now.  I started off building web applications/sites and now work on mobile applications.  About 6 years ago, we got acquired by another bigger hospital.  It was a great opportunity and I got to learn all new technologies.  Shortly after that, I got promoted to Senior Application Developer.

IMG_0773This is the part where it got a bit interesting.  In one way I did feel like with all my prior 12 years of development that “Senior” was justified, but the other side of this coin is I was a newbie learning a whole new coding language.  Since then we’ve hired new folks who have experience with newer technology and live and breath this stuff.  It’s all they want to talk about and at times expect me to know it all.  I don’t.  I’m 52 and when it’s 4 pm I shut off my laptop and have absolutely no desire to building servers at home or this or that around technology.  I’d rather be walking my dogs, hiking, reading, ..or drinking some brews listening to The Who on my porch.

So I’m feeling Senior as in OLD.  Like I can’t keep up with these little bots.  My manager and team never bring this up and I stil get all my work done on time.  It’s just something within me.   Like I’m not really qualified any more?  So let me sit up and ask this one question.

Has anyone out there ever felt this way?  How did you work through it???  While I wait for a response I’ll go flip the album on my stereo.


Maybe I’m senior as in Old School Baby!

13 responses to “Feeling Senior”

  1. Ha! That’s all the exact same stuff I wanted to do off the clock since I was twenty LOL. I don’t consider it feeling “old”… I consider it having different priorities and wishing to live life instead of living work. I say, do what makes you content and happy without guilt. That’s my two-cents.

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    1. I’ll take your two-cents Tara and say Thank YOU❤️

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  2. You just have the maturity to realize that life is not all about work. That’s not OLD, that’s wise!!

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    1. Oh it sure isn’t anymore! One of these years I want to check out “Van Life”. Thank you for your kind words😊

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      1. As a minimalist myself, I love that idea with plenty of off-grid experience. Yes! Do check it out!

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  3. Most likely a normal reaction…. which still does not help at all.

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  4. This is life! It’s a constant change and as time passes so do our priorities. Go with the flow and enjoy it and don’t worry a hoot about the young kids on the block! They have a lot to learn! Katie

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  5. Be proud of yourself for LIVING, and send compassion to those who don’t know how. It is the younger generation…I struggle with getting my son to talk about anything other than Minecraft. Frustrating…

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  6. Changing interests or priorities are one thing. It is the physical decline that I hate the most. I want to determine what I will/won’t do, not what my knees will tolerate.

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  7. I’m senior. You gotta channel your inner nerd. Curiosity combined with depth of knowledge still gives us a considerable leg up. You have to embrace their enthusiasm You can’t compete with youth .. but you bring different Moe uncommon value. The trick is to demonstrate that. Every day a new challenge and learning process for that last trick here

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  8. I used to think it was a conspiracy of the young. Anyone our age has had to relearn their office job many times. Like trying to learn a foreign language at 60. If you need a break. I’m talking about sex.

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