I’m practicing being more social

For many years I’ve pretty much been a hermit quite content staying home and hanging out with my dog. For the few friends I had, they knew I was an introvert and I’d often tell them I have like a two hour window on outings then I need to book it home. Something slowly changed all that though.

This two hour window I had created allowed me to fake it. You see within my confidence was very low. I didn’t feel like I was up to par per se. Within 2 hours I never had to go too deep with anyone and they’d never see how uncomfortable I was feeling inside. I repeatedly made excuses on why I couldn’t make it out when asked.

Covid may have helped keep that behavior, but I think it also inspired me to make some changes. When you lose a freedom life gets real, quick, and shines a light on what’s right in front of you that you’ve taken for granted. For me, I admitted I was lonely as hell! The days and nights alone were no longer cutting it. I realized I needed others in my life. I wanted to start sharing fun experiences with others so holy hell when I got older and looked back on my life I could say to someone …remember that time we did X?

Pain in this life is not avoidable, but the pain we create avoiding pain is avoidable.

R. D. Laing

This change was also inspired by some growth work I implemented since my divorce. From obtaining empathy the hard way, becoming sober, getting out of debt, and focusing on my wellness I slowly started to like myself more and gain confidence on where I was at. When the gates were taken down after Covid, I started to push through my internal pain of socializing.

I put myself out “there” and started a walking and rucking group. I’d post the information out on MeetUp and in the beginning nobody would show. Slowly though folks started to attend. I’m actually glad it started off slow because I needed to work on practicing small talk. It was actually exciting meeting new folks and learning about their lives. Long story short, I eventually ended the groups, but I acquired 5 new friends I still do things with each month. It was a huge win.

Along with that I started a small group that I’m accountable to everyday. There’s only 3 of us and that seems to be the perfect number. We don’t meet in person, but we do check-in via an app called Volley that uses video primarily. Our group focus is on wellness: mental, physical, and just everyday things like what’s going on in our lives. I’ve learned I can be vulnerable and still accepted and even honored for it. That’s been huge to me. We all have the same drive on Do The Work and No Excuses. We celebrate our successes together and help hold each other up when times get interesting. Words can’t really express how grateful I am for these two folks. They make my day and life better. Thank you Jackie and Anne.

Beyond that I’m saying yes more now when asked if I want to do something. I found myself a few weeks ago at a movie with a friend. I was sitting in one of those recliners with my feet up, tapping my toes together, with a big smile on my face. I was happy and we were going afterwards to eat. It was going to be an over 2 hour extravaganza😊. This weekend I’m heading to a friends mom birthday where I won’t know many folks, but I’m committed to this new process. Like everything else in life you have to start somewhere, have faith, stare down the initial pain, and practice the practice! You will improve.



* Thanks, Lovie, for the inspiration to write this.

12 responses to “I’m practicing being more social”

  1. This is wonderful Dwight ! Reading your post and Lovie’s was very inspiring ! I can relate to the 3 person group thing too 🙂 this year I started a meditation group and there are only 3 of us so far but it’s been a great way to socialize and do things that don’t involve going to a bar. Thanks for a lovely read ! Xxx Anne

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    1. Thanks, Anne. Love that you have a meditation group, that’s pretty neat!

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  2. I get this, Dwight. I’m an introvert too and definitely find myself declining social invitations because it seems like “too much”. Thanks for the inspiration!

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    1. Thanks, Emily. It’s definitely been a slow brew process that does get better as you move forward.


  3. You are the best Dwight! I’m so happy you have put so much time into yourself because you absolutely deserve it. We are lucky too as we just love ya and it’s so great to see that smile of yours! I loved reading your description of you sitting at the movies. Just wonderful. Our Volly group keeps me going for sure! As you mentioned I can say anything to our group and I feel totally myself. I’m a pretty quirky person and I don’t hold back or retake my check-ins. That’s huge for me, thank you! ( Remember when I was being lazy and I said to myself “Get off the couch, Bitch.” 😂. Or when I burped in a check-in? 😆Things like that I wouldn’t just say to anyone or not care about a burp. ) I remember doing my first Volly to you and it’s been such a joy ever since. I could write a book on how happy this post made me! Have a kick ass day my friend!! Talk to you soon! ❤️🙌🏻

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    1. Thank you, Jackie🤗

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  4. I love it Dwight! I am so happy to see you getting out more and that you are at a point where you are genuinely enjoying socializing. And… I am so happy that you invited me to join your Volley group and introducing me to Jackie. I love you both and love seeing your Volleys. 💓🤗😁

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    1. Right back to you, Anne. Thank you🤗

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  5. Hi Dwight! I have a big smile on my face for you! 🙂 YAY!! I understand this post so well as I self-isolated for a long time after my divorce too. It’s hard to get back in the saddle (LOL) and get out to talk with people again. I get it. So hear my applause! 🙂 I’m so happy for you!! PS I’m starting to do the same…lots of positive changes going on, my friend!

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  6. Yes, the older I get, I see how our social connections are vital!

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  7. You have done an amazing job getting back out there, Dwight. I also tend to hermit away, and I really find your description of how you tackled this inspiring. ❤️

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