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I wake a few minutes after midnight. Don’t worry. This won’t be minute by minute of the next 24 hours. Well hopefully not. So I mentioned I use sleep to handle my depression, well this creates a huge problem for my sleep pattern. It’s basically whacked! I’ve read a lot about getting out of bed when you can’t sleep, so here I am out in my living room on my red couch, hmm red is that a sleep color, pecking away this start on my iPad. There goes another thing I read to stay away from screen time before sleeping. Maybe I should have stayed in bed.

I pour a small glass of apple cider vinegar and water. It’s a magic potion that has so many benefits that I’d be one finger typing all night. So being an American I want the quickest way to be cured with the least amount of work and drink this elixir. I wait. Nothing. Wait a bit more. 3 seconds have passed at this point. Nothing. Still not sleepy and I’m not farting daisies out my butt. Okay, seriously this is my first tool. From my understanding, ACV is supposed to help with the digestive process and since I usually eat like crap I can use a lot of help in that area. I’ll catch you in the morning. I’m going to think some sleepy thoughts while I read Wayne Dyer on my hell couch.

Woke up at 6 and stayed up(tool).  Usually, I let the dogs out, feed them, and go back to bed.  My goal for today is to stay up till 9:30 tonight, so I can hopefully sleep better.  To be honest, I’m a bit apprehensive that I committed to myself and the universe that I’d go through with this.  I really just want to crawl back into bed.  Morning routine consisted of decaf coffee, stretching, and a cold shower.  So those were 3 other tools.  I’ve realized caffeine and I am not a great match.  I like to the quick energy, but the drop afterward isn’t worth it.  The stretching comes in handy since I work from home and sit behind a computer all day.  Now I’m sure many of you had raised eyebrows when I mentioned a cold shower?  Yep.  I’ve been doing that off and on now for a couple of months.  The Ice Man on YouTube turned me onto it.  If you want to remove depression try standing under cold water.  First of all, it takes your breath away briefly and secondly, depression is that last thing you’re thinking about.  It is a rather intense way to start your day I’ll admit,  but when I’m done I’m awake, alive, and refreshed.  I hear also it’s good for your hair and skin, circulation, and eases stress.

Midday I took the dogs out for a walk(tool), lunch, and a 15-minute meditation(tool).  I’m pretty sure I fell asleep near the end – oh well : )

The evening consisted of a kettlebell workout(tool) just prior to dinner.  Somehow I managed to stay up till 9:30(tool).  Yeah, I made it!

Thoughts on Day 1:

• After going out to read on the couch, I still tossed and turned when I went back to sleep.
• Need to change up the morning routine order and start off by giving thanks.  So tomorrow try giving thanks, stretching, cold shower, then my reward of decaf coffee.

Some may be wondering how I’m feeling?  Definitely not as bad as yesterday, but I’m guessing that’s because I actually got off my butt today.  Still, feel like I’m just going through the motions.  We shall see how tomorrow goes.  Thanks for reading and your support.