Tag: depression
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I don’t want to do anything today
I don’t want to do anything today.I don’t want to show up.There are no curtains to close and life seems to be staring me down.Nothing particular happened. It just is.I want to bury myself in bed, but the beds are leaning against the wall.The drywall guy will be here soon and another day of work […]
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Dragons
I have a bit of a fascination with dragons, so when I saw this photo out on castelliditalia’s site on Instagram I was in awe. I’m all about understanding we must tend to our dragons. One way or another they won‘t remain hidden for long. Try as you might they will eventually arrive at your […]
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Celebrating 3 Years Sober Today
At three years sober, I feel at home with myself. I feel welcomed. I wish this for all of you. For those considering quitting alcohol, Do It! It will be the best gift you’ve ever given yourself. Dwight 🦋 You are Worthy. You are Intended Here to Shine. I Believe in You!
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Don’t jump into your sh*t!
We don’t have to jump into our thoughts. Just because it paints a vivid picture and tries to suck us in we do have the option to say no and just let it pass. It is definitely tricky though and you must remain alert. Train yourself to Witness your thoughts and become the observer and […]
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Part II: The Rising
Please read Part I: The Rising if you haven’t already to get the context of this post. Have you ever experienced a Phoenix Rising? I’ll attempt to answer these but I’m guessing it will be more like bits and pieces of rambling but that’s okay I guess. I would love to hear about your rising […]
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Part I: The Rising
*** Before I start I want to make it clear this is in no way a slam against my ex. She is a beautiful soul! As anyone who’s been married knows, life happens. I completely own my part of that dance that ended. This series will be focusing on my phoenix rising afterwards. It started […]
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My Faded Jeans Living Blog
After being off WordPress for 30 days, let me start off by saying HELLO MY FRIENDS! I think of my blogging as a way to connect to others, and to give and receive support as I try to make sense of this life and move forward and grow. By sharing my fears and experiences many […]
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Pillow over the head
Today was a mental health day. I laid in bed, put the pillow over my head, and shut my eyes tight so darkness would come, and I could escape via sleep. There had been too much negative talk building up within and be it good or bad it is my escape. Some will say you […]
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Thinking of you
I just wanted to let you know I’m thinking of all my super heroes out here this morning. Some of you may be happy, sad, jazzed, lonely, at peace…. who knows right and it may depend on the time of the day. I get it! Always always always remember you are an amazing beautiful worthy […]
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YOU have the POWER over how YOU respond to LIFE
Before I start I’m asking for all of my superheroes to go check out and follow my friend at Rock Bottom To Sky High who is currently on their sober journey. Thank you. *This is going to come across grandiose and pompous. I get it. Fire away. Going to jump right into this! So I […]
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Rucking
*Disclaimer – I’m not a doctor, and didn’t spend the night in a Holiday Inn Express. Use common sense and do what works for you and your body. I’ve only learned about rucking in the last few weeks, but so far from what I’ve experienced I’m totally jazzed! I heard it described as an activity […]
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It’s way more than just quitting alcohol
* It’s an act of faith to post early in the morning as you clearly hear your heart song Quitting alcohol is huge! For many it’s the required first step. Like I’ve said several times before it allows you to finally give yourself a chance. Instead of retreating and hiding in the fog, you will […]
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One brick at a time
I became sick and tired of being sick and tired of my life. Something had to change! – gift from my Soul Today I want to talk a bit about moving forward in a new direction in your life. To move forward it’s going to take YOU doing the work of putting bricks in place […]
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2 Years Sober AF!
I couldn’t resist with the AF. Old habits are hard to break. I’m literally sitting here on another sober anniversary photo shoot with my daughter feeling pretty damn happy for what I’m accomplishing and proud. Can you tell by that grin? I’m smiling big on the outside and within. I honestly never thought I’d ever […]
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Good Morning to YOU❤️
Having woken up many mornings in my past with slowness and dread, I was thinking of many of my super heroes out here that might just be experiencing some of that today. It could be you are feeling one or many of these – worried, discouraged, scared, depressed, hungover, lost, broke, heartbroken, hurt, or just […]
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You aren’t alone
With the holidays coming up I wanted to get this Truth out to you. NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE FEELING YOU MUST REMEMBER THIS. You are loved. You are love. It’s your birthright from Spirit, and Spirit never leaves us on this journey. It is within and also around us always. Spirit to you may […]
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Not Today!
Some days you can just start feeling that wave slowly building up trying to sneak up and crash down on you. Your spider senses start to tingle and deja vu comes to mind. Not today! I’m stopping you right in your tracks and shutting you DOWN. Frick you! I’m not buying what your laying down. […]
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Taking a break
Just wanted to let you know I’m going to be off WordPress for a bit. I need to take a mental health break and try to flush out the current state of my monkey mind. So reconnecting to my soul is in order which means getting quiet, meditating, and who knows what else. This happens […]
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Peace & Love
Happy Friday, Super Heroes! Just wanted to send out some peace and love to all. Life can knock us down and toss us around at times, but we always have the choice to get back up and take a step forward. One thing I’ve picked up on this year is to stop ruminating on the […]
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The “F” Word
I can’t believe it but I’m starting to think about one of my “F” words: GOALS! You see like forever, if I even heard someone mention that nasty word, I’d be like shut the hell up, of course in my head, as I just smiled. I’d be like dude I can’t even keep my shit […]
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Finding our new self
In the last two days, I’ve come across the reference to the Greek myth of labyrinth and the Minotaur. Once in the book Callings, Finding and Following an Authentic Life by Gregg Levoy and a blog entry here on WordPress by Kachaiweb – Food.for.Thoughts. Now this isn’t something that usually happens to me coming across […]
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Me, Suicide Attempt, and an Emotional Breakdown
Me So I’m going to talk about a couple of life events that many men who have experienced don’t usually open up about. Most just stoically hide it deeply within multiple layers hoping it will just go away. For me, that only leads to more men thinking they aren’t “man enough” when the depression/I don’t […]
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Our highest self
I’m realizing as I write out my thoughts a little context goes a long way. Many of you who read my blog battle with depression as I do. My hope is this post surrounds you all with light and helps you get through some of the storms. I post this only with the goal of […]
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Till Next Time
How do you slay a dragon when it brings forth fire breathing depression on your ass? First, you find the courage to face it. Second, you use every tool you have in your arsenal. Third, it’s impossible to completely slay, but the sooner you deal with it the sooner you start feeling better. For me, […]
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Day 4
Howdy! Okay this is my last day of documenting. I didn’t get a great night sleep, but it wasn’t as bad as the night before. I actually started googling sleep labs last night while I couldn’t sleep🤪. I just can’t imagine having to sleep with a machine over my nose, but something has to change […]
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Day 3
I’ll cut to the chase. Day 3 of using my tools to work myself out my current depression state was a bust. I got to bed on day 2 around 10:00, but woke up at 12:30 and didn’t fall back to sleep until 4:30. When my alarm went off at 6, I took care of […]
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Day 2
For those asking Day 2 of what? A few days ago I was in a pretty bad depression state and decided for the next 3 to 4 days I’ll use some of my tools dealing with depression and document it here on my blog. I’m doing this to […]
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Day 1
I wake a few minutes after midnight. Don’t worry. This won’t be minute by minute of the next 24 hours. Well hopefully not. So I mentioned I use sleep to handle my depression, well this creates a huge problem for my sleep pattern. It’s basically whacked! I’ve read a lot about getting out of bed […]
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Eve
I’m going to do something I don’t do a lot and that is talk about my depression. I’ve seen so many brave souls open up and share so much and realized sharing helps in many ways. Two main benefits are it helps the person release instead of blocking it and holding it inside, and it […]
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