“I said to my soul, be still and wait without hope, for hope would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love, for love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith, but the faith and the love are all in the waiting. Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought: So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.”
-T. S. Eliot
“As a Wanderer, an apprentice to the unknown, you long to be initiated into the fully embodied life of your soul. You will have to wait. The fallow time of the second cocoon, the time between death and rebirth, cannot be dodged. To catch up to your soul, you will have to learn, as T. S. Eliot did, to place your faith and love and hope in the waiting.”
-Soulcraft by Bill Plotkin
These two quotes reasonate with me. There have been multiple times in my life where everything within just shut down going into safety mode to cause no further damage. I’d scream come on already, but nothing. Just darkness. Eventually I’d start back uP, and think I died and re-birthed. Like a one way trip from caterpillar to butterfly. Oh how I was wrong. How many re-births will it take? For the waiting isn’t something I do very well. The thought arises there are still parts that obviously never died, and I indeed have some catching up to do. Now I attempt to sit with and trust the waiting 😊
Faded Jeans Living 
Your post reminded me of the song The Waiting by Tom Petty. Lyrics that came into my head were:
The waiting is the hardest part
Every day you see one more card
You take it on faith, you take it to the heart
The waiting is the hardest part
And so it goes Dwight. Baby steps. Allowing life’s wisdom to unfold.
It’s all good…and you know that. And I get how the waiting is the hardest part. Be kind to yourself. Be gentle. All is well.
Big hugs, Janie
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Love those quotes, too! How many re-births will it take? I’ve asked myself this very same question. I always get the same answer: As many as it takes!🤔😂
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Perfect answer😊
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i never heard either of those quotes until now..love them. Oddly, today i was in a similar way and i recall my days with a previous Life Guru, who taught me about “the Void”. I believe it is similar….
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I would agree.
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p.s. he was teaching me about Gnosticism..which is still very relevant to me, even as a Christian
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lol..sorry for the multiple comments but i was just trying to google something similar to what i remembered learning and could find very little but here is a link that “sort of” explains it ( if you can sift thru the new- agey diatribe-https://gnosticteachings.org/glossary/i/2437-illuminating-void.html
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I’ll check it out, thanks Lovie😊
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Indeed, this theme/idea has been popping up more and more. I’ll take it as my guides nudging me😀Thanks for sharing. “Voidness and existence are complementary to each other and not in opposition to each other; they include and embrace, rather than exclude or negate each other”
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Love this Dwight – beautiful 💞
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Welcome to being human, Dwight. We are all in this together! 🙂
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Good Heaven, you wouldn’t want to be the same person you were at 17, would you? I mean, having the knees would be great, but still… We are always changing and growing, if we’re clever enough NOT to stagnate. Time to get in some of that lovely nature, and watch as she patiently waits for the next changes to occur. 🤗🤗
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