Till Next Time

How do you slay a dragon when it brings forth fire breathing depression on your ass? First, you find the courage to face it. Second, you use every tool you have in your arsenal. Third, it’s impossible to completely slay, but the sooner you deal with it the sooner you start feeling better. For me, the depression starts getting smaller and smaller and eventually flies away. I know it will come again, but next time I will be more prepared.

Tools I used the last 4 days battling my dragon:

  • This online community
  • Stabilize sleep patterns
  • Drink apple cider vinegar
  • Decaf coffee
  • Morning stretches
  • Cold showers
  • Taking dogs and me for walks
  • Meditation
  • Give thanks/prayer
  • Strength training
  • Exercise bike
  • Turmeric tea
  • Fasting
  • Being kind to self
  • Cleaned my house
  • Spend time with loved ones

Summary:

This time around I forced myself to deal with it by making the commitment and documenting it here. Usually I would of road it out hiding in bed with a pillow over my head. I didn’t succeed every day, but each day the tools helped me emotionally and physically which relieved some of the pressure of depression. One insight was my sleep patterns need much help. I had one night where I got 5 straight hours of sleep and felt like a different person. Imagine 6 hours straight🤪. After much thought, I am going to inquire from my doc about going to a sleep lab. Lastly, I’m discovering the food I consume definitely comes into play with all of this. I need to get disciplined in that area for sure. I’m going to also explore incorporating fasting once every so often. It did seem to help like a type of cleanse.

On Day 1, I was regretting making this commitment to myself and you all. Now it’s Day 5 and I’m so glad I did it. Who knows maybe in the future you’ll see more “daily journal” posts on healthy eating or working on my sleep. I’m very grateful for all of you reading, commenting, and supporting me these last days. Thank you🤗

Best Wishes,

Dwight❤️

Question

How come it’s easier to write out our feelings to the whole world to read, but every day we hold them tightly to our chest when we are with those who love us?

A few weeks ago I met up with an old friend I hadn’t seen for over 20 years.  I did something I don’t usually do and instead of just saying yes life has been interesting these last few years,  I was honest and said it sucked!!  I told her all about the bad and the ugly and yes I was scared, but I was no longer going to hide “me”.  I think she was a bit shocked at my honesty and I guess in a way so was I.  I even told her about this blog and gave her the link.  People will say you need to be careful Dwight.  You shouldn’t do this with xxx, or be careful discussing this type of stuff with xxx.  To all of that, I say – F it!  If they want to judge so be it.  I don’t need that in my life anyway.

Some will always live in the matrix.  I did for a very very long time.

Others have discovered what’s casting shadows inside the cave and have found the courage to get up, face the shadows, take the shackles off,  and be Free again!  (Plato’s Cave)

***Picture is Boris – He’s always real around me – I love him for that***