A Good Day

imageIt was a good day.  Sam, my 1968 camper, came home from having his gas tank lined due to rust.  Sucks getting old and oh how can I relate.  The great Great Spirit is shining on him though with some love here.  I just picked up Sam at the end of last year and he’s been in and out of the shop for various repairs, so today was a good bonding day.  I started up in the cab and commenced cleaning.  I swear Sam hasn’t seen any TLC and many moons.  Tomorrow is a tear out day in Sam where I’m going to remove an old sink and fridge.  There’s so much work to do but that’s why I bought Sam.  I needed a hobby and when I saw him my heart smiled and I knew we were meant for each other.  We’re both a bit older, slower, rustier, but still have great potential to shine again and head out on this highway of life!  Feeling grateful!  And so it is.

Saved

Normal

then

a Snarl, a ROAR

what, I don’t understand

biting down deeper and deeper

pain twisting and ripping along the way

cutting  and cutting and cutting

straight on course

finding its target

there it blew

what the hell all flashing by

I looked again

Her face turned back to normal

I looked down

Broken Open

peering inside

there was Me

Saved

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Heart Sutra

I learned of the Heart Sutra last week in a group meditation at a sangha I attend from time to time.   It struck my heart with loving light and makes me feel safe.  Thought I’d share.

Gate gate paragate  parasamgate Bodhi svaha!

Going, going, always going on beyond.  Always going beyond.  Blessing!

Gone, going, always going on beyond.  Always going beyond.  Blessing and blessing!

Gone, gone, gone to the Other Shore, attained the Other Shore having never left.

Enlightenment

 

 

 

 

 

Beyond the Like

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2018.  I don’t usually go down the whole new year resolutions path, but this year I have a calling that won’t shut up.  It says…Get off the fence!  Speak up!  Your voice counts and now the time is right to put yourself out there a bit.  Stop hiding Dwight HYDE : ).

So what is the calling you may ask?  Still trying to figure it all out, but basically I believe it’s to share my heart with others.  I’ve sat alone and read/heard so many stories from beautiful souls that just makes my heart break open and the tears flowing.  At those times I realize there is so much love inside that’s just waiting to come out.  Crazy.  51 years old and I’m a big old sap.  I guess the work I’ve been doing on getting back in touch with ME has opened this new door.  I’m not complaining and now is the time to take action.

I’m drawn to respond to others beyond the basic thumbs up Like.  I want to get past that to a new level where the other person knows  –> I dig you, I dig what you wrote and how you are currently feeling.  I get you.  YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!  I’m also trying to connect more with men who sometimes hide their feelings and spread this message especially to them.

I know for myself when I’ve wrote something from my heart and put it out there that I’m always touched when others respond with love.   I’m not trying to get likes – I’m trying to grow and truly connect and so far have been so happy with the results.  I feel people want REAL stories of the good, bad, and the ugly.  It’s f’n reality.  Not this bullshit “News” put out by the media to get more clicks..more advertisement revenue.  People want to connect and man we really do have more in common then what the news presents.  We all suffer, get depressed, and are all trying to figure it all out for sure.  I’ve been so depressed in the past I didn’t want live anymore.  I’ve been so depressed that I couldn’t get out bed and had to take 6 weeks off of work to start working on my mental health.  I’ve been so far in debt that at the age of 49 I had to ask my mother for a loan.  I’ve been through a divorce after 16 years of marriage when I still wanted to be married.  Real shit.  No shit.  And I know there are many others out there and that’s why I’m pushing myself out of my comfort zone and speaking out…Beyond the Like.

So, for those who enjoy my rambling post like this one – Thank You – and expect to see more comments from me.

I dig you!!